‘If you’re a racist…i will attack you with the North!’ – Abraham Lincoln – Micheal Scott =)

yea so….a little behind in my Japanese class. =( On top of that… i am pretty tired, and i havent had anything to eat today. blaaaaaah.

Sensei is explaining to the class to to talk about animate and inanimate objects…..you know what? never mind. it would be too hard and take to long to explain haha.

now that i have my life in order….i guess i should redirect some of my attention to my studies in school. however transferring only SOME of my attention is something that i have never been good at…..ill update you readers(if i have any haha) in 2 weeks.

Of recent….ive been making INCREDIBLE progress in my passions. I heard from one of my friends that another friend of mine said that, “It’s like a switch went off in Jared’s head!” Hearing that made my heart warm =). My friendships have gotten stronger. My family life has had more posotive progress recently than it ever has before. And i feel less stressed, and that i can function as a normal person….FINALLY!!! I have solidified my beliefs, continue to gain understanding, and more importantly…applied that knowledge and turned it into wisdom.

However, of late i have been…..reminiscent. i find myself dwelling on past relationships (mostly with the female gender) and on the friends ive had throughout my life that i have no further contact. i know it was my choice to terminate my association with said people, and it has been more than beneficial for me. But i cant help wishing that those people and I were still friends.

For example….for those who are married. I assume( since i have yet to get married) that when a married one is physically separated my distance and contact from his or her mate….and sence of lonelyness or emptyness MUST be there. However they take comfort knowing that soon they will have their loved one back in their arms.

How am i suppost to react, knowing that i will most likely never come in contact with my old friends ever again? Or that if i do, it will be a quick exchange of, “Hey how ya doin?” and a ” Not much, how about you?” type of encounter?

I find the only way to cope is to forget these people as quickly as possible and move on untill the next time i feel….sentimental. Does this make me shallow? all i know is that everytime i tell myself to forget….i feel like i tear a piece of my soul away…..
-food for thought

i stumbles across THIS on one of my internet ventures years ago and just rediscovered just how annoying music can be. anyways….pretty cool flash animation. can you beat it? o.0